Hello everyone so quick warning that this article will be discussing mental health and brief mentions of suicide (non-graphic or into extensive detail but it will be mentioned.)
I am going to be discussing my Freshman year of high school, at the time I was attending public school, now I do online school, so that's the point of view of my experience and if you have your own experiences I would love to hear them in the comments.
So I was 15 at the time and it was my first year of high school. I generally have a lot of trouble with change and take awhile to adapt to new things. This greatly increased my anxiety and I was dealing a lot with panic attacks the previous year.
I began dealing a lot with depression at the beginning of the year and trouble with my studies definitely increased that as I was surrounded by people that understood everything in class and someone would say how easy something was while I was on the verge of crying.
This continually escalated and I began staying home, first maybe a day and then into a whole week. I ended up getting a written excuse from my psychiatrist to stay home. This was both good and bad as it allowed me to be out of school which was a place of intense stress and anxiety for me but I also isolated myself intensely. My school kept threatening me family even though I had the proper excuse to be out of school.
I was having daily panic attacks and I hated myself and this snowballed into me attempting suicide.
I ended up going to our local hospital but was then transferred to a psych hospital in the state capital as my hospital only took in adults for the psychiatric ward there. The people there requested work from my school and I ended up being there for 5 days or so and the entire time wasn't given anything to work on from my school so I basically just ended up reading the book I remembered we were working on. So at this point I had been out of school for a long time, my friends didn't know what had been going on or anything.
Upon getting out the stress was piled on in school and everyone asked where I had been and I just said I was sick. I was still incredibly stressed in school and when I say my school did nothing to help me get back on track I'm not exaggerating. I even remember being told if I was stressed during the day I could go down to the counselor only to be turned away and asked to go back to class.
I then very slowly began developing other mental health issues and it was eventually determined that online school had to be the option we went with.
I did end up going to inpatient two more times within that year but my teachers were so much more understanding and would keep in contact with my father to ask how I was doing and I was able to keep up with my studies from inside the hospital.
I'm going into my Junior year now with the same online school and I couldn't feel more confident. I always hope other being have more positive experiences with mental illness in school but i know it's not always the case so I thought I'd give my own experience.
The best advice I can give is to be candid with your parents about how you're feeling as well as a teacher if there's one you're comfortable enough with.
Hope this can help someone in some way, and hope everyone reading this has a lovely day.